THE FIRST SMILE :)

Today, 7th March is one of the unforgettable days of my life.I felt something strange and new today. I've never had this feeling. NEVER. 

I ve never seen a just born baby in my life.It was so small that it colud fit into my palm. Its heartbeat gave a jerk to the whole body of the baby.It was full of life :-) 

Its the most beautiful creation of God.

Today, I was not feeling very fresh, was not in a good mood. Dunno why though.. I din know what was troubling me.. ! so as usual started with my laughter medicine.. FRIENDS .. this sitcom has the power to make me feel better.. no matter how moody i am :) My sis's friend gave birth to a boy baby, some 3 days before.. and mom n sis were getting ready to go n see them. I really din feel like going.. wasn't feeling all that energetic.. but something made me go.

Recently I realised that spending time with kids is making me feel happier, making me laugh a lot !! :-) The stupid things they do.. their silly fights.. !! Can't get enough of it!!

Something told me i should go n see the baby.

And so i got ready and went with them. The baby was premature and so was smaller than usual.. God.. It was dark red in colour.. like a rose !! with green veins prominent here n there. The baby was sleeping. My mom and sis started talking to the people there.. and I was sitting silently.. unusually!:P I was sitting besides the baby's cradle and kept looking at God's (or nature's if u think so) most beautiful creation! Before a few days.. It was just an embryo, that was seen with the help of a microscope. and now, Its breathing, yawning , sneezing, crying !!!The sight of the baby brought SO many questions to my head..!!! 

So .. Where did I stop? Yeah. I kept looking at the baby.. He was sleeping. Suddenly from nowhere.. like a wonder, those tiny black eyes opened.. He was looking at me.. I couldn't stop smiling!!!He yawned and then gave a smile with his thin dark red lips!! God! I loved it. I called my sis and mom.. n they all came to see the baby.. He was staring at us. I couldn't stop thinking what could possibly be running in his brains ..!! what was he thinking.. looking at our giant faces.. all staring at him.. showing our big white teeth.. ! Hehe! 

Sometimes really small things make us wonder how talented the creator must be!! Thanks to that tiny soul.. He made my day!! :-)

SPEAK OUT

Communication - thats the need of the hour !
Have anything disturbing you.. ?
eating your head?
SPEAK OUT !
want to tell someone that you love them ? or that you hate them the most ?
Jus go tell them.. its better to tell it than showing it!
Stop imagining things and jus talk your heart out.
everything will be fine and definitely better :-)
"ethai ne maraithaalum, manasai maraikkaathey.. adangaamaley.. alaipaayuthey.. manamallavaa" :-)

Life's little lessons

I dint know .. I dint know it had legs .. or wings .

I dint know it was faster than me .

I really dint know it could bring so many changes in me .

It is really shocking .. Couldn't just digest the fact that it could bring the strangest ideas to people's minds.. that you wouldn't ve expected even in your wildest dreams .

Yes , I accept . It defeated me.

It is called the Terrifying Infectious Mind-changing Elixir . Yeah . TIME .

I've always been a big dreamer , I dream with eyes open. I imagine so many things.. Even the unnecessary , useless stuff. I am just not able to change that habit of mine!!!

My amma used to tell me. It seems i never expected company when i was a kid . I used to have some toys and play with my own imagination !

I used to be a very studious kid ., with superb concentration, dedication etc.,. I used to top my class . I don't know What got into me.. I sensed some change in me after the year 2000 .

I dint find studying a piece of cake .. I was still a good student .. but had to really struggle to concentrate.. Somehow passed out of school with a pretty decent score .

And then came the real tough times!!

I hate films! They lie !! Huh .. the way they picturise college life..Since the day i saw a film with college people .. I was longing to join college.. I thought it is going to be the best part of my life.

Time kicks rarely ..But it kicks you real hard that it will surely leave a long lasting scar in your heart.

Got into a pretty decent institution with so many dreams. I told you .. I am a big dreamer.And I could hear TIME talking to me.. "hey kid enjoyed school ? t'was like heaven eh?? so lemme give you some change.. "

I will not blame my institution . I am going to blame me. From the day one , I was disappointed and it jus did not leave me. It made me see the negative side of everything . Trust me I was a real optimistic person.. My friends usually came to me for some encouraging words , suggestions and now.. I was longing for some encouragement .

Anyways inspite of the regrets and dissapointments that kept me haunted ., I did get some great friends and had some good times with them :) Thank God!

Now . I am in the verge of getting out of my college. 4 years. yeah. 4 LONG years. But still, not as long as I expected it to be !! Again TIME surprised me here . For all the things i faced in college.. I did not expect it to get over so fast!!

Whatever it is , I am grateful to time. I am back. I am full of confidence , hopes and as usual, DREAMS. Thank God again!

I had to face so many unexpected situations. Got embarrassed a dozen of times and.. cried .. God knows how many times!!

But learnt SO many things. Just cannot count . I learnt a number of really small things of life. I am really grateful to my college life and everyone (friends and foes) who contributed to the things i learnt!!

*If you think it is good to be innocent and selfless, you are going to suffer.

*If you keep trying to be in the good books of everyone, you'll end up losing your identity.

*Just be yourself. Do what your heart says. BUT, Be careful . Listening to the heart always can make you emotionally weak and unstable. Give work to your brains too.

*Better stay away from fickle-minded people.If you don't know how to find that in a person.. yea right .. use your brain , not your heart. you'll figure it out.

*TRUST. The word is not given the importance and respect it deserves. And so you have to be really careful in selecting people whom you are ready to trust completely. Cuz , By trusting them, you are giving them the right to hurt you.Its dangerous. It has the power to destroy you.

*PROMISES .similar to trust . tricky word. Jus don trust promises ! Promises are made so that they can ultimately be broken some day or the other. And hey . A promise is not the only thing that is broken. Your heart too is.

*DO NOT GIVE A DAMN TO WHAT OTHERS THINK ABOUT YOU . THAT IS NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS.

*Whatever it is . Whatever happens, the only people whom you should trust blindly , love unconditionally are your parents. DONT EVER hurt them . When the whole world turns against you , they are the only people you'll find by your side. Be ready to do anything for them. You don't get to choose them, unlike your friends. God chooses them. They are God's gift to you.

*Never lose hope. Never get fed up with life. Things will change . Things will get better . I told you . TIME will bring both sorrows and surprises. Jus keep moving .

I've just spent one quarter of my life span and 've learnt things that 'll last in my memory forever.And finally , jus one life!! (yeah next birth n all who knows.. i might probably end up becoming a moth that has one day lifespan!) So...

*PLAY HARD . PRAY HARD .