The colliding moment

I am sure all of us would have met with some or the other road accident, or at least know people who have been through one. Now, please don't label me as someone serious and dark as I choose to write on this topic. I recently met with a two-wheeler accident and I am slowly getting back to normal. I am bored resting at home ;) so here I am writing about it.
I remember how my friends in college used to make fun of me riding a bike (I was really thin then. Btw, I still am ;-) ) saying - "Don't ride alone. You might fly off" . I used to laugh and ignore (as I always do for any comments on my lanky structure. Silently I tell myself.. "you are jealous.. bitch";) ) I quoted this here because, after this accident.. it all came to my head!

I work in Bangalore . I love this city. It has EVERYTHING from A to Z. It is a city of colours, scents, music and food! And how can I miss this . Traffic. Bangalore Traffic is the topic of the city. It's the only thing that gets bangaloreans frustrated about living here.The most pitiable ones are people with expensive cars. All they can do is move like a Janavasam Car in first gears. I , being a Kinetic Flyte  owner, overtake all these cars (with a not so explicit happiness) and fly to work. Oh, I love my bike :-)

That is a very old pic! That's my roommate riding my vehicle and that's me at the back.

Last week, Saturday, I had planned to see my friend and then go visit my brother.I had a nice long one hour chat at my friend's place. Already hungry, I started heading to my brother's place. A middle aged man in a scooter was heading towards me in the wrong direction. I was not very fast, but there was little I could do by the time i realised we are going to clash.!
Now, comes the interesting part. You know how people say, the second you meet with an accident, your mind thinks about your parents, the people you love, a sudden fear of "what if.." etc. etc... All that is bullshit. All that came to my mind were two things :
1. Wanted to yell at the middle aged man , but didn't do it! I was in pain
2. Wanted to find out where all the blood was coming from! 

Followed by hell a lot of drama and a group of autowalas cursing that guy (just because he didn't get hurt but I did ;-)) , I managed to get myself treated and safely reach home that night. I am 80% fine now, and ready to get back to work.. But.. I can't help but think now - "What IF....?" 

Why ?

Why is earth round ?
Why is the rainbow not coming often ?
Why is the colour black.. actually called black?
Why does your first cry make others smile ?
Why is it actually called "Falling" in love? is it a pit ?
Why do you sometimes feel like doing something.. and not doing it , at the same time ?
Why is it that people can't find out what you think? Wont life be a lot easier if that's possible?
Why does your mother love you so much even when you show all your mood swings on her ?
Why is that i feel animals are better than humans ?
Why do we call ourselves with different names of nation , religion , caste, when all of us are made of blood, flesh and bones ?
Why do people change ?
Why is it very easy to ask questions, but so damn difficult to answer?

Why ?

I am still ALIVE ! :-)

I can just not forgive myself for not writing for more than a year now. ! Things have been different and It took me so much time to get adapted to Bangalore life. All these months since last september have been like one helluva roller-coaster ride !! Some boring speechless days.. sleepy afternoons and useless weekends were ofcourse there ;)

Some really really happy moments were there too ! My only sis.. my partner in crime got married in March 2010 to the love of her life ! Those few days.. I was always hyper ! ;P After she moved to NJ , Things were little tough.. got lonely.. got bored with the routine. But surprisingly.. never lost my energy ! Months after that have been varying from good to worst !

Learnt so many things all these months I was away form blog..

*I cook AWESOME food now ! and I am damn proud of it !

*I am usually alone.. but NEVER lonely !! Have my own routine that makes me smile and stay happy!

*Teaching in a government school. Love those kids! :)

*Started pencil sketching again.. Though I haven't improved much ! ;P

*Most important.. waking up early.. walking a lot nowdays.. and have put on weight !!!!! (hi5!)

I really want to continue writing atleast from today.! Read my favourite blog www.justamotheroftwo.blogspot.com after a long time.. and felt like I am missing on something by not writing ! :(

So I am back ! :-)

Annoying can be fun!!

Recently i read an article on 'amiable anarchy' that talks about amusing oneself while unsettling everyone else around, in a good-natured way ofcourse!!!! :P  Its sometimes fun to make people lose their temper! 

*Say nothing when you answer the phone.They called you.. they should speak first!

*When someone is sad about something.. go to them and say innocently.. 'cheer up, the worst is yet to come..'

*Go to a wedding dressed as a bride/groom.

*When cars stop for you at a zebra crossing, run up and pat their bonnets to show your appreciation.

*Say 'ouch!!' everytime the hairdresser cuts a bit of your hair.

*When someone drops something and says.. 'hey it has fallen near your shoes'(actually meaning 'take it and give').. just say 'oh.. i see' and walk out ! :P

*When a local bus pulls up to your stop, step off saying aloud, 'thank you, driver!'

No offence intended ! ;)

THE FIRST SMILE :)

Today, 7th March is one of the unforgettable days of my life.I felt something strange and new today. I've never had this feeling. NEVER. 

I ve never seen a just born baby in my life.It was so small that it colud fit into my palm. Its heartbeat gave a jerk to the whole body of the baby.It was full of life :-) 

Its the most beautiful creation of God.

Today, I was not feeling very fresh, was not in a good mood. Dunno why though.. I din know what was troubling me.. ! so as usual started with my laughter medicine.. FRIENDS .. this sitcom has the power to make me feel better.. no matter how moody i am :) My sis's friend gave birth to a boy baby, some 3 days before.. and mom n sis were getting ready to go n see them. I really din feel like going.. wasn't feeling all that energetic.. but something made me go.

Recently I realised that spending time with kids is making me feel happier, making me laugh a lot !! :-) The stupid things they do.. their silly fights.. !! Can't get enough of it!!

Something told me i should go n see the baby.

And so i got ready and went with them. The baby was premature and so was smaller than usual.. God.. It was dark red in colour.. like a rose !! with green veins prominent here n there. The baby was sleeping. My mom and sis started talking to the people there.. and I was sitting silently.. unusually!:P I was sitting besides the baby's cradle and kept looking at God's (or nature's if u think so) most beautiful creation! Before a few days.. It was just an embryo, that was seen with the help of a microscope. and now, Its breathing, yawning , sneezing, crying !!!The sight of the baby brought SO many questions to my head..!!! 

So .. Where did I stop? Yeah. I kept looking at the baby.. He was sleeping. Suddenly from nowhere.. like a wonder, those tiny black eyes opened.. He was looking at me.. I couldn't stop smiling!!!He yawned and then gave a smile with his thin dark red lips!! God! I loved it. I called my sis and mom.. n they all came to see the baby.. He was staring at us. I couldn't stop thinking what could possibly be running in his brains ..!! what was he thinking.. looking at our giant faces.. all staring at him.. showing our big white teeth.. ! Hehe! 

Sometimes really small things make us wonder how talented the creator must be!! Thanks to that tiny soul.. He made my day!! :-)

SPEAK OUT

Communication - thats the need of the hour !
Have anything disturbing you.. ?
eating your head?
SPEAK OUT !
want to tell someone that you love them ? or that you hate them the most ?
Jus go tell them.. its better to tell it than showing it!
Stop imagining things and jus talk your heart out.
everything will be fine and definitely better :-)
"ethai ne maraithaalum, manasai maraikkaathey.. adangaamaley.. alaipaayuthey.. manamallavaa" :-)

Life's little lessons

I dint know .. I dint know it had legs .. or wings .

I dint know it was faster than me .

I really dint know it could bring so many changes in me .

It is really shocking .. Couldn't just digest the fact that it could bring the strangest ideas to people's minds.. that you wouldn't ve expected even in your wildest dreams .

Yes , I accept . It defeated me.

It is called the Terrifying Infectious Mind-changing Elixir . Yeah . TIME .

I've always been a big dreamer , I dream with eyes open. I imagine so many things.. Even the unnecessary , useless stuff. I am just not able to change that habit of mine!!!

My amma used to tell me. It seems i never expected company when i was a kid . I used to have some toys and play with my own imagination !

I used to be a very studious kid ., with superb concentration, dedication etc.,. I used to top my class . I don't know What got into me.. I sensed some change in me after the year 2000 .

I dint find studying a piece of cake .. I was still a good student .. but had to really struggle to concentrate.. Somehow passed out of school with a pretty decent score .

And then came the real tough times!!

I hate films! They lie !! Huh .. the way they picturise college life..Since the day i saw a film with college people .. I was longing to join college.. I thought it is going to be the best part of my life.

Time kicks rarely ..But it kicks you real hard that it will surely leave a long lasting scar in your heart.

Got into a pretty decent institution with so many dreams. I told you .. I am a big dreamer.And I could hear TIME talking to me.. "hey kid enjoyed school ? t'was like heaven eh?? so lemme give you some change.. "

I will not blame my institution . I am going to blame me. From the day one , I was disappointed and it jus did not leave me. It made me see the negative side of everything . Trust me I was a real optimistic person.. My friends usually came to me for some encouraging words , suggestions and now.. I was longing for some encouragement .

Anyways inspite of the regrets and dissapointments that kept me haunted ., I did get some great friends and had some good times with them :) Thank God!

Now . I am in the verge of getting out of my college. 4 years. yeah. 4 LONG years. But still, not as long as I expected it to be !! Again TIME surprised me here . For all the things i faced in college.. I did not expect it to get over so fast!!

Whatever it is , I am grateful to time. I am back. I am full of confidence , hopes and as usual, DREAMS. Thank God again!

I had to face so many unexpected situations. Got embarrassed a dozen of times and.. cried .. God knows how many times!!

But learnt SO many things. Just cannot count . I learnt a number of really small things of life. I am really grateful to my college life and everyone (friends and foes) who contributed to the things i learnt!!

*If you think it is good to be innocent and selfless, you are going to suffer.

*If you keep trying to be in the good books of everyone, you'll end up losing your identity.

*Just be yourself. Do what your heart says. BUT, Be careful . Listening to the heart always can make you emotionally weak and unstable. Give work to your brains too.

*Better stay away from fickle-minded people.If you don't know how to find that in a person.. yea right .. use your brain , not your heart. you'll figure it out.

*TRUST. The word is not given the importance and respect it deserves. And so you have to be really careful in selecting people whom you are ready to trust completely. Cuz , By trusting them, you are giving them the right to hurt you.Its dangerous. It has the power to destroy you.

*PROMISES .similar to trust . tricky word. Jus don trust promises ! Promises are made so that they can ultimately be broken some day or the other. And hey . A promise is not the only thing that is broken. Your heart too is.

*DO NOT GIVE A DAMN TO WHAT OTHERS THINK ABOUT YOU . THAT IS NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS.

*Whatever it is . Whatever happens, the only people whom you should trust blindly , love unconditionally are your parents. DONT EVER hurt them . When the whole world turns against you , they are the only people you'll find by your side. Be ready to do anything for them. You don't get to choose them, unlike your friends. God chooses them. They are God's gift to you.

*Never lose hope. Never get fed up with life. Things will change . Things will get better . I told you . TIME will bring both sorrows and surprises. Jus keep moving .

I've just spent one quarter of my life span and 've learnt things that 'll last in my memory forever.And finally , jus one life!! (yeah next birth n all who knows.. i might probably end up becoming a moth that has one day lifespan!) So...

*PLAY HARD . PRAY HARD .

CATastrophe?!!

"Marriages are made in heaven" - general belief .. 

Well.. nowadays they are made in heaven.. but get shifted downwards after sometime !!!wat say?

Fights between a couple are very common.. yeah .

okie. If u reach the highest limit of ur patience, and could not stand ur spouse anymore,... what would  you do.. i mean.. normally?? 

>walk out?

>stay dumb?

>kiss and make up??

>one tight slap???

>throw someTHING?? (thing. i mean)

okay.. any more ideas??? I read this sometime before.. and couldn't stop thinking about this!!!

A guy Paulwood of Pennsylvania, threw a CAT on his wife.

Yeah . its not a typo err. A CAT. WTH! How could anyone possibly get such dumb weird ideas??

The couple got into some fight n the guy threw their family CAT on his wife.He was eventually arrested for domestic ill-treatment.! (and not for trying to hurt his wife.. note the point!)

Well this reminds me of a vivek (the famous comedian of tamilnadu.. if u din know:P) comedy.. from the film whistle. The guy 'll accidently face electric shock n will get some supernatural power .. of hearing what people think in their minds. Did i say people ? it incudes animals too :P the scene 'll show wat a dog thinks in its mind.. while it faces human interference!! if only the cat could talk! It would've used the worst ever possible words to swear at that weird fellow!!

Seriously.. where do they get such ideas from...

OKKAANTHU YOSIPPAANGALO ??? 

FAILport???

     Like any other final year engineering student, I found myself reluctantly filling the monotonous passport forms. As usual i took a lifetime to make everything ready, and thats when they opened passport office in my city ! They said only online registration is allowed, no hand-filled forms. (WTH!) annoyed yet badly in need of a passport , I started with online registration n stuff, and got the date of submission as feb 2nd '09.

    The time slot alloted was 11.15 am, but some "experienced" people told me '7 will be fine i guess.. Go there at 7 am da kanna'. I actually laughed at their ignorance... later realised that i was the ignorant ass ! Being the 'D' day today .. I got up at 6am (btw slept at 1 .. what was i doing? - Arranging all the documents - yeah procrastination is my childhood friend ;-)) Got ready and before i knew.. i was standing in a queue .. With almost 15 people in front of me! (Man.. when do these people get up? Do they even sleep?)

   Well.. tell me what do you think is the worst thing in life.. that you hope you ll never want to go through ? Death ? Failure ? being alone ? Trust me there is nothin worse than standing in a 'God knows how long' queue.. for 31/2 hours . And yeah the most important thing - I ll be incomplete if i dont mention this. A queue, very much close to the toilet. Wow what a romantic location to stand for hours together.

   And so I waited, and waited and waited. The queue started growing behind me. A dull looking old man was standing behind me.. Was wondering Where is he gonna go.. why does he need a passport in this age..okie. I know that’s so mean of me to think like that.. but hey.. even you would think that if u were there! Then saw a family coming towards my part in the line.. They came to the man, stood there and asked him to go. He was the driver. Poor soul. This is how people take advantage of their servants.

   The family included a school girl, in her uniform.. probably hoping to finish it and go to school by noon I guess :-p

   As time passed.. the queue became longer.. and the toilet odour.. (I mean the phenol smell! :P) became intense. Though I am thin and kinda appear to be a‘not so healthy’ person.., I was mentally strong enough to stand patiently next to the toilet n not complain.

  Suddenly, peace was disturbed by people behind me, I turned back to see what happened.. ( well, was too bored in the queue.. would love to see any thing interesting ;P) The girl in uniform was about to faint.. it seems she is allergic to phenol smell (WTH!)!!!

  After that and another long hour in the queue.. I noticed that the queue ended in front of me.. !! :D it has taken a turn :P the queue became a ‘U’ :P :P

  The sentry came running , throwing out commands.. sent people in, after checking them ofcourse .. (you know.. people may really want to keep bombs in that long, god forsaken building!)

  My turn came.. God .. I thought I’ll have to spend half of my lifetime there!(quarter of which , I ve already spent , STUDYING!) After some really anger provoking conversations with restless people at the office.. I came out with the bill.. yaayy..!! submitted my passport application!! Felt as if I achieved something big! Really… standing near that toilet was a great achievement indeed!!

  INDIA has become advanced.. INDIA is modern.. I hear these atleast 5 times a day.. I wonder why they cannot arrange atleast a token system at the passport office, so that we need not stand from 7am (for the office that’s opening at 9.30am) .. And please.. Shift that toilet or change the queue place !!!

  Passport experience was an ‘experience’ indeed.. but it failed to amuse me!!!

The First one

This my first blog ever ! I am really excited about this whole blog thing !

Hoping to use this to think aloud , Share opinions about anything n everything .

So, here I start .

More to follow :)